How do I fucking move on.

It's been 6 long months. And I've tried every fucking thing. I've tried working out, I've tried to see other people, I've tried to sit with my grief. I don't have no clue how the fuck do I just not see that person like I used to. How do I not think of him and break down crying when I'm listening to songs. How do I not come home from work, lay in bed, stare at my ceiling and think about how beautiful he was, or how amazing he made me feel. I'm shit scared to love someone like that, even if I manage to move on, manage to not think about him, how the fuck will I love someone again with the same intensity. All I wanted was to give all my love, and be loved back. I have no clue what I'm supposed to do now.