I miss my old life

It’s a really long story so I’m not gonna tell it all but I really miss my old life with my ex. I guess I do kinda miss her. Not sure why I feel like this today but it sucks. I’m trying to make the best of my “new life” but who am I kidding I’m fucking miserable. I feel like I’m at a place of forcing myself to be ok with the life I have now and not thinking about it because I feel like if I actually stopped and thought about it I’d snap. Could really use someone to talk to I guess.