Is it bad I want to go into birth blind?

I’m a chronic overthinker/anxious person, and our baby is high risk - and honestly now that I’m nearing the end at 37 weeks, I want to just let my body do what it naturally will do. I don’t want to overthink labor symptoms, look at labor story videos on Instagram, or read Reddit posts about going into labor or what to look for… I just want to live my life until I’m like “oooo… I think we need to go to the hospital.”

We’re already going to have a lot to think about once baby is born, so maybe I’m just fatigued from thinking/doing?