I can’t believe the mental gymnastics

Is anybody struggling with “being friends” with your ex pwBPD and the way they rewrite history after they discard you?

Mine wants to eventually “be friends” but when we’ve talked she consistently tries to rewrite the narrative of the relationship (and my love and devotion to her) claiming that I never prioritized her.

When I push back and defend myself, reminding her of the truth (that I did love and prioritize her) I am gaslit and told that I am undermining her.

I feel like I’m being emotionally raked over the coals for continuing to try to love someone who has convinced themselves that I didn’t actually love or prioritize them.

It’s hurtful and maddening on so many levels. I’m so sad it’s gotten to this point. I have no more emotional energy to spend trying to convince someone I love them…I don’t know what to do so I’ve stopped the conversation and gone NC for about a month.