I had several entities take over my physical body and perform a healing on me during a psilocybin ceremony. I would love to connect with people who have had similar experiences.

Last September, my partner and I held a psilocybin ceremony alone in our apartment. We set our intentions, put on some ceremonial music, laid in darkness and went on our inner journey.

Sometime into our journey, my body became inhabited by several different entities and they began performing a physical healing on me. It came out of nowhere and was unlike anything either of us had ever experienced.

I’m including part of my journal entry from that night if you’re interested in the details. I’m curious if anyone out there has had a similar experience. I’m not a medium and I don’t have experience “channeling” so this is all relatively new to me. If anything similar has happened to you, without or without plant medicines, I would love to talk about it. I think about it all the time.

————————————————————- 9/21/19 

Last night B and I held our own psilocybin ceremony at our apartment and we both witnessed a miracle. My intentions going into the experience included physical healing and divine guidance to help me move forward into the next stage of my evolution.

The artist, East Forest, put out an album recently called, “Music for Mushrooms: A soundtrack for the Psychedelic Practitioner.” It’s 5 hours from start to finish. We decided to let this be our guide. B and I ingested the medicine, put the album on, laid in bed and waited for the medicine to take us deep into our consciousness. As we both felt the medicine beginning to work, some nausea kicked in along with some visuals of sacred geometry and patterns, all of the usual stuff. Then, sometime into the journey, I felt some gunk starting to loosen up in the back of my throat, in my tonsils and lymph nodes area. So I sat up over my bucket and dealt with it. It was as if my throat was being massaged from the inside out. Years of stuff stuck in there started coming out slowly and I'm not sure at what point it happened, but in an instant, I felt myself in the presence of the same grandmother energy that has shown up for me in past ayahuasca ceremonies. It's a very unique and distinct knowing. It's not a thought, a feeling or an ocular vision but the presence is just as, if not more, real than any physical body and maybe that's because it is coming through senses and sensations that I do not normally experience. When I am in this place, I have no reason, need or desire to suspend any disbelief because I am experiencing it as real as I would any other physical being in my presence. In essence, I can "see" beyond the veil.

Then, my entire body became 100% inhabited by this presence, along with what I can only describe as other "entities." I was completely aware of what was happening the entire time. The grandmother presence started working on my throat and neck area through my body, using my limbs as her own and proceeded to use very calculated and methodical movements, which included a range of jerking motions, tapping, massaging and sometimes even slapping my throat, neck, nose and head. My body was contorting, my hands doing things to my neck and throat that if anyone from the outside saw it, I imagine it would have the appearance of a possession. B mentioned from his perspective that no human could willingly do what I was doing and that it was pretty amazing to witness. They were in complete control of my body. I was making strange clicking noises and they were moving my fingers deep into my throat area on my neck and lymph nodes as all of this gunk and mucous was coming out of my mouth, nose and throat. B did get concerned with what he was witnessing, not knowing how I was even able to breathe, but I was completely at peace. It was healing to say the least, not only physically, but also emotionally, as I was in full surrender to these loving outside forces.

B held space for me, knowing by the inexplicable that was unfolding before his eyes, that there was another presence in the room. He would make sure I was ok, ask me what I needed, helped me hold my bucket and made sure I had tissues and water. "This is a miracle" "This is amazing" were some of the things I can remember him saying as he witnessed the events take place. I was right there with him, in complete awe and wonder. 

But the entire process wasn't all pleasant for B to witness. He wasn't in my body. He wasn't in my head. He couldn't feel the ecstasy I was feeling within because he was concerned about my well being. When he would check in on me, they would let me come back and make eye contact to comfort him and explain that I was still here and that I was okay. They would let me pause every now and then to rest and take it all in. At times I would cry with such a deep gratitude for what was happening. I remember crying and saying “Thank you so much. I see you. I see you.” Then I’d go back in and they’d continue to work. B would console me, pat my back, and at one point said, “You’re my everything.” In an instant, my voice changed and the words channeled out of my lips to B were, “You. ARE. EVERRRYTHIIIIIING, B.” They spoke through me to him but the message was for both of us. I felt my connection to B on such a deep profound level. I felt complete oneness with all that there is, with everything in existence. So when the message shot out of my lips, it made so much sense. I GOT it. Message received. Then after it came out, I was so shocked by the whole experience, I actually came to and was able to acknowledge the message out loud. I asked B, “Wow! OH MY GOD. Did you get that message?” He was so bewildered, all he could do was smile in fascination and say “Yes?!... Thank You?!?!?!” And he wasn’t saying thank you to me. I can still hear his voice, part fright but mostly astonishment. I felt my own divinity and they wanted B to feel his too. They wanted B to hear it. To see it. To KNOW it. 

There were several entities working on me and their differences were highly recognizable. The grandmother presence was loving and warm and patted my face with a loving force (according to B, she even patted his face). There was one point when the entities got really playful. They would go from working on my neck, my head deep in trance draining over my bucket, and then my head would fly up and look at B and say “You’re IT.” And then my head would jerk back very forcefully into the bucket as my hands and fingers continued the work. Witnessing the entire thing from deep within (or outside) my body, I would be so amused and sometimes I would laugh out loud. There was one time they said out loud through me, “He needs to hear it again. He needs to hear it again. He needs to hear it again.” Then they would turn me towards him and say, “You're it... you're IT.... YOU’RE IT.”

At one point, all very suddenly, my head lifted up from the bucket in way that felt like stop motion animation and I emitted several very strange "Ah" sounds as my voice vibrated in a way I’ve never heard. The pitch got louder and louder and louder and then it reversed back into silence, head dropping back into the bucket. It felt mechanical. I sounded like a machine but it felt like it was all part of the healing process. It was as if my throat chakra was opening wide up and being reset.

B eventually got worried and later revealed to me he didn’t know if I was “coming back.” At this point in the evening, he looked exhausted and tired and asked how much longer they would be. Again, they stopped and allowed me to come to so I could console him. They told me to tell him to go in the other room if it was too much. I could see in B’s eyes that he needed me, which is when I gently asked them to please finish so B and I could spend the rest of our evening alone together. They respected where we were and stopped the theatrics. We both collected ourselves, worked our way into the bathroom and grounded in the shower but even then, I could still feel them working on my throat from the inside out for a little while longer, but they did so in silence.

B said, “If I wasn’t a believer before, I am now.” If anyone had been in the room, they would have not believed their eyes. This is stuff I only hear or read about. My small mind is still processing the profundity of it all. It’s almost too big to grasp. B and I were saying in conversation after it all happened, if my body had started levitating, it would not have been any more convincing or shocking than what was already happening in the room last night.

Never would I ever have imagined I would have been a channel for entities to come through my body and make themselves manifest. I wasn't quite sure what I even believed about "psychic surgery" or people who claim to channel entities but now, having lived it myself, I am beyond convinced of the possibilities. Even saying I’m "convinced" doesn’t feel right. To me it feels like the same thing as saying I’m convinced I’m human. Of course I am. So with that I say, of course there are other forces here with us, guiding and protecting us. They’re here. They’re with ALL of us, ALL of the time. Each day will continue to bring new challenges as we are not immune to the harsh realities of our world, but we all have access to our eternal flame that allow us to move through it all with more hope, ease and grace. It's that little voice inside of us that we often ignore, suppress or numb all too easily through our daily distractions. That's the only voice you must listen to. Quiet your mind, go inside and discover the magic you hold within. "You're IT."