I Don't Want to Be Homeless

I'm sorry for the dramatic title but I'm at a really low point in my life right now. I've been job hunting for the past 3 months and been trying to get all the help I can get and have nothing to show for it. I'm running out of money and soon I won't be able to pay my rent.

I've been through countless government agencies seeking help with applying for disability, government programs, help with employment and none of them consider me disabled. This personality disorder has disabled and ruined my life but it doesn't matter because I'm probably too young in their eyes. I have chronic physical ailments too but they don't care about that either. American society is incredibly abliest and too morally corrupt to do anything.

I've put my mind and body through incredible torment applying for countless jobs and am absolutely tired of useless interviews and rejection over and over again. People are so incredibly rude and treat me like dirt on their shoes. I have to pretend that I want to be treated like shit for the chance to get paid minimum wage at a shitty job with shitty people.

I have nobody in my life to fall back on, nobody that cares about me or will help me from ending up on the streets. If I end up homeless I won't even have a car to sleep in because I don't have one. I've seen how people treat the homeless and if I'm treated like that I will kill myself.

Nothing ever gets better and people consistently let me down. No wonder I ended up this way.