Yet another therapist is (gently) breaking up with me because I don't talk enough.

I'm not really sure what else to do. It's not like I'm doing well, but I hardly interact with anyone so I just don't have much to talk about in therapy. And my anxiety is so high when I do talk that it doesn't feel worth it to talk.

But I'm miserable, lonely, (passively) suicidal, anxious, I hate my life. No, I don't really want to get better but it's because of the fear of how much my life would have to change in order for me to be "better". It doesn't really seem worth it. But the life I'm living now is not worth living at all. I'm stuck and hopeless.

I was in the psych hospital and May and they flat out told me they didn't know how to help me, either.

I'm on a handful of different psych meds and I see a psychiatrist monthly but it's been 3 years with him and 5 years with the psychiatrist before him and I've hardly improved; I'm afraid he's going to give up on me soon, too.

What do I do?