birthday fail

I'm sorry to come here again but I am overall not feeling well. My birthday is in a couple days and the only thing I had to look forward to is my cake. but literally everything I'm doing is failing. I feel so awful about everything. I promised people cake, I wasted sm ingredients that did not work out, I'm being ridiculed by family, I spent a lot of money, and this was the only thing I have to look forward to. everything else on top of this is building up and I just want to break down. I just wanted a cake. I've never been to a bar but I think I should try it out soon. a little dramatic but whatever.

the point anyway of this post is, I'm asking if some of u all could tell me happy birthday. the people I promised cakez they are not rly ppl I know, just my moms friends. I don't have anyone really that I am close to at all. I know that some people love me in my life but I just feel really alone right now. sorry if this post is cringe or whatever.

edit: thank you everyone who has wished me a good year, birthday and has helped me feel less hopeless overall. I am in a dark place rn and this posts responses have helped me immensely. I've calmed down enough to give it another try with the rest of the ingredients I had bought. i was able to succeed, in turn, making me feel less like I wasted everything I've done to succeed in the past few days. I really appreciate the love you all are so easily able to give to strangers. I give so much that I just stop hoping for any in return and it really messes with me. So thats why I'm so thankful for you all. I hope you all receive everything you give 10x more 🖤🩶🤍