I need real bitch advice rn

I’m tagging it as serious because the second I get the okay, I’m jumping on it (respectfully).

So I work with this guy right? He’s damn near perfection. I talked to other guys that say “I was raised right I can open doors and blah blah blah” but he’s always just done it. He can look at you when make eye contact when a weird customer comes in, and he’ll just come and take over. He gives me advice when I do stupid shit, even if we’re just playing he can tell when I’m hurting and he won’t do shit until he can hear and see I’m okay. Idk how to explain it HE JUST DOES IT.

Little background on my life and shit that could be influencing my emotions (summed up): parents dont care for me (aka never celebrating birthdays even though they celebrate my other siblings), I love the idea of love (I’m 17 bffr), he’s cute and I hear stories from my coworkers of what that mouth/body does, respectful to the upmost level, honest, and we’ve both connected abt our home lives.

I want to like him. If he asked me out (even tho he’s a few years older) I would say yes right now. Yet his account has pictures of the girl he used to like (aka my friend & our other coworker), he might not even work here for another year like I will, and he has a picture of his ex with him at all times. But I still have/wear jewelry guys gave me 🌝, I still talk to other guys, and this blk guy in a few of my classes if a good #2!!!

Here’s my question. Do I ruin a brewing friendship with my urges since I know a relationship with him would be like Lola and Tiny from Degrassi (aka no chemistry) or do I make a jump? Am I just so lost and stupid from the amount of sexualization people I put on myself that the second a guy shows he cares about me I mistake it for romantic attraction? I NEED SOMEONE TO HOLD ME DOWN AND TELL ME TO NOT DO IT BECAUSE I REALLY JUST NEED A FRIEND THAT CARES ABT ME AND NOT GENITALS 😭