I might grow old and die alone.

My (34) gf (30) is not whom I need.

She seems to despite my presence ; turning off my music, shooting down my ideas, vocalizing how ugly my taste in interior is, she never touches me (except when she wants a back rub, or got a stiff neck or whatever...), everything I enjoy (hobbies) is "stupid" ... She is no longer the wonderful, caring girl i first fell in love with.

I know what I should do, but I am terrified of the idea of being, living, and ending alone.... Even when I have decided that I need to break it off, the idea of her suffering even the slightest tears me up..

It feels like the woman I'm about to leave devoured and destroyed the wonderful person i once loved, except sometimes she shines through...

I miss her