Am I robbing my SO?

Hey everyone,

So, our engagement is a few months away and we've been discussing a lot about what is to come. One of the topics is kids. We've discussed it earlier when our relationship got serious and I straight up told her that I'll be ending things if she wants kids because I don't want to be someone who is going to deprive someone of parenthood just because I don't want kids. She mentioned she isn't big on kids and she didn't have anything else to comment on it. But she didn't explicitly say anything. Fast-forward to this day, the topic of conversation came up again and she mentioned that she still doesn't have any comments to this matter because she genuinely don't know. This relationship has been absolutely amazing and I love her so damn much. After she came into my life, I turned into a much, much better person and it's the best thing that's ever happened to me. It's exactly the same with her. It's been more than 4 years now and we still have the same spark. I've been pushing her to think about it and she still says she doesn't know. It feels like she's compromising motherhood to be with me, but when I asked her this, she's still giving me the same response. She knows I'll call off the engagement and the relationship if this was the case and this is the reason I told her this 8 months into the relationship.

I don't want kids because of everything that I've been through as a kid, and it created a sense of repulsion when it came to "family" per se in a traditional sense. And no, it is not going to change when I have my own. And honestly I don't want to take that chance and put a kid in misery if it doesn't work out well.

For me, I want to spend the rest of my life with her. Tour around, go on adventures and live our life together till our last breath.

And please let's keep the thread respectful. I really want to know if this is how most women feel, or how it is. If it's natural to feel confused about it at this time or if I'm actually robbing her off her motherhood. I would really like some insights.

And no, she is not leaving me hanging, she is not trying to manipulate or gaslight anything. So please refrain from these comments because she's one of the kindest people ever to walk this planet.