Rejected prospect active on matrimony. Should I reach out?
So, I have been in AM process for the last 1.5 years and have met 2 girls face to face and had a discussion with 4-5 girls over phone. There is this girl I met in the initial stages of my search offline. It seemed we vibed well and initially I was okay to move ahead. I followed her on Insta post our f2f interaction and there I saw some photos that made my impression go down on her (basically, my physical attraction took a hit). Since, it was my first interaction with a girl in AM setting, I haven't really observed nuances (which I did through her insta feed). This paired with some problems with each other jathakas made me say no to her quoting the kundali mismatch. I have personally sent a message to her wishing good luck and suggesting her to be as she is ( I felt bad doing this as she was really a good person but I didn't want to confuse her on the reasons for rejection and just stated Kundli mismatch).
Cut to now, I have realised that it's my nature that when I am about to get closer to some one (some wierd anxiety pulls me down). If you have read the book Attached, you would know that I am an 'avoidant' ( I spent time to understand how relationships, marriage etc.. work by reading books).
It's true that our kundali didn't match but right now I have come to a conclusion to not check anyone's kundli's (convinced my parents as well).
Now, I am clear on my requirements ( much better than where I have started). I feel that my initial f2f match was the best of the lot and unfortunately I rejected it.
Tell me, how fair of me to reach out to her again? Please let me know your thoughts.
Before someone judging me, It's true that I would have gone to another match if I found someone suitable in the last 1 year. But it didn't happen. ( Pretty sure, it must be the same with her. I think that's the nature of AM)
Edit: I am 28M, never dated any girl in my life so far. Always of the opinion of choosing a long-term partner (but just didn't find any).