AITA for having sex before marriage

My (19M) family is conservative and they don’t hide it. I don’t live with them anymore, I live with my two best friends near our college. I’ve always been a more feminine guy and never got insecure about my big eyes and small waist. Although they don’t really like it… well.

Last night I went to a party with my childhood friend Ivan and we got crazy high. Not really the healthiest thing to do and I know. I was still a virgin, but he asked me if I wanted to fuck with him. I said yes since I had a crush on him. Although I don’t remember everything it was very good and he was very gentle when fingering me and railing me which honestly left me a little shocked. When I woke up we were cuddling. I felt very happy because I was thinking that maybe we can be happy in secret (since Japan isn’t the best country to be LGBT).

Don’t ask me how, but my parents found out. My dad, specifically, got FURIOUS and went on a rant about how disappointed he was in me and how I was a worthless man now. He said no woman will ever want a whore like me who takes it up the ass. He didn’t use this exact words which, because honestly I don’t really know how to translate his words to English. But he said a lot of insults. I am trying my best to cut off contact with him since around two months ago but he keeps finding me and saying I’m ungrateful. I don’t know what to do.

Does it make me unworthy?)