So frustrated and hopeless, dont know how to help myself

Im struggling so much and i dont know how i can help myself 17m

The one medication, vyvanse 30mg, that worked for me highered my heart rate and now i have no hope for finding anything else that can help me. It fixed everything but had that one side effect my doctor put me off bc it was average 109-125 resting but like isnt there stuff that cna be done?? It feels like she only cared that my heart rate was too high so we had to switch immediately but it SOLVED EVERYTHING ELSE FOR ME. concerta so far also highers heart rate but my executive dysfunction is so bad and my mood is horrible most times. Like isnt there stuff i cna do like more cardio overtime, eating citrus, eating before taking meds(i usually took them fasted) like please. Also beta blockers are a thing too. I just dont know what to do anymore ive tried to improve myself without meds but no matter how hard i tried i would only be capable of doing 20% of what other people that are barely trying could do. Its just not fair and im so sick of it. Im getting so unmotivated and depressed i skip classes because i just cant be bothered and i couldnt even get to clean my room after reminding myself 7 days in a row. I just cant do this anymore. I feel so done.

I take low doses of medications that dont work for me and i perform worse (even than w/out meds) at everything in my life and everyone hates me for it. When i took the vyvanse i was able to get things done and not bother people as much with constant falling behind or lack of competence, then my doctor says no more and thats bad. I just cant win atp.