Just diagnosed

I just had my ADHD assessment and have officially been diagnosed with ADHD - primarily inattentive. My assessor also mentioned I had some autistic traits, but said these could be down to my social anxiety which I talked about a lot.

I expected to feel relieved and happy after the assessment, as I thought I'd get a sense of 'this explains everything' which others had mentioned. I actually just feel sad and deflated, like there's something wrong with me. I'm also concerned about whether things can really change or improve for me without medication.. the only post-diagnostic care they mentioned were some educational webinars, and I was kind of hoping to try medication, but I doubt my GP would agree to shared care anyway.

I've thought a lot about how my work life, relationships and general wellbeing have all been affected by my ADHD due to my impulsive behaviours, lack of focus, lack of energy and inability to maintain relationships, as well as many other things. I was hoping I'd be able to do something to improve these areas but I just feel hopeless now because I don't see how learning about ADHD can help, but maybe I'm just being cynical.

Maybe just talking at length about your difficulties can make you feel deflated and like you're "broken" somehow, so I'm sorry for the rant and for being a downer!