How the hell do I forgive evil humanity?

This post will probably get deleted because there is 0 freedom of speech on Reddit especially if you don't adhere to the left wing doctrine, but let's give it a try.

I'm from Israel. For most of History the Jewish people has been brutalized by every other people be it christians and muslims. Less than a hundred years ago we have been genocided by the Europeans. All of my grandparents are holocaust survivors. And in the last hundred years all of the Arab muslims of the middle east have been consitently trying to genocide us unsuccesfully. The Zionists were peaceful settlers who did no wrong to nobody, and baught land legitimately from the Ottomans who rules the region for hundreds of years. The local muslim arab were racist and envious of the Jews for their prosperity and decided they wanted to commit genocide on the Jewish population. Later the Brits took control of the region and promised the Jews they could have their own country in a part of the region in the future. The Arabs didn't like that and they colluded with Hitler (google Haj Amin El Husseini and Hitler). They promised Hitler if he took control of Israel they will do the genocide for him. Long story short the Jews tried to create a partition plan after the UN decided the Jews deserved their state in Israel. The Arabs immediately started a war with the intent of another genocide, which they failed. Some of them fled , some of them remained (these guys became Israeli citizens with full rights), some territories were seized by Jordan (judea and Samaria) and Egypt (Gaza strip).

And ever since then the arabs have been continuously trying to wage war against Israel, always losing, with the intent of a genocide against the Jewish people. In the meantime, all of the Jews living in muslim countries were brutally kicked out and had their property stolen. And inevitably they had to move to Israel too.

In 67 and 71 all of the Arab countries united together to attack Israel with another failed genocide attempt. They lost and Israel got hold of Judea and Samaria and The Gaza Strip.

ISRAEL NEVER STARTED A WAR AGAINST IT'S NEIGHBORS. ALWAYS PROPOSING PEACE DEALS (google olso accords for example) WHICH THE OTHER SIDE CONSISTENTLY DECLINED!!!

In 2006, Israel single-handedly withdrew from the Gaza Strip, and ever since then, Hamas took control and have been attacking us incessentaly for 20 years, launching missilies against civilians, as well as abducting civilians and launching terror attacks. All this culminated in the horrible autrocious massacre of October 7th and the massive war launched against us by all the surrounding countries in the following year.

The international media covers none of this and portrays a completely false version of reality in which Israel is always to blame!

Now, for some reason the entire world sees Israel as the aggressor and the bad guy. We are the most attacked country on the face of the Earth, the most boycotted country on the face of the Earth. (Right now Christians are being butchered in Syria and Congo, yet no one cares. China is literally implementing ethnic cleansing on It's Muslim population, yet no one cares. Only when the Jews are involved the whole world cares all of a sudden) The most hated people on the face of the Earth probably. It's scary for an Israeli to go abroad these days. It feels like the 1930s in Europe. Seriously. Everywhere you go you see those pro-hamas protests calling for a genocide against my people (from the river to the sea) and everybody is acting as if that's normal and we are the bad guys.

How the hell am I supposed to forgive humanity? please tell me.
I know this is a dream and I created all this shit , but still. I have soooo muuucchh anger and hatred in me, I could never bring myself to forgive a pro-palestinian supporter after what they did to us all these years, and especially on October 7th.

Also, I have been vegan for many years, and have watched a lot of documentaries about the animal food industry , which is absolutely demonic. 99 percent of people around the world couldn't care less about the suffering of these animals. How do I forgive all this cruelty? how???????